Finding Nemo
I thought I was going to die!
It was May 3, 2007 when I had my first taste of scuba diving. Yes! You got it right- SCUBA DIVING! My friends from Game knb convinced me to join them for scuba lessons. At first, I was thrilled…ecstatic…determined…I wanted to adhere this undertaking for three reasons. First, to rekindle the friendship with my gameknb friends…I missed them so much…being away from them because I joined a different show format made me realize that they’re the best colleagues I had in that TV network I worked for seven long years (talk about seven year itch). Second, to conquer my fear of the ocean…hindi ako marunong magswimming. Ba’t ba?… Lastly, to divert my attention and just simply to unwind because it was only months that I just had my heart broken by my ex-boyfriend-for four years-whom almost-soon-to-be-husband. (future blog entry, hehehe)
That was it! May 3, 2007 was my first and last scuba diving lesson/ pool session for the year. No words can describe the feeling I had when I was underwater…being able to breathe underwater (swimming pool lang) using all those equipment that I can’t even seem to memorize the names made me overjoyed and thankful. But it made me question myself. Can I do this? Can I actually dive? I can’t concentrate…can’t focus…can’t understand a thing my dive master was teaching me. I was preoccupied by the fact that my heart was badly bruised during that time and I was trying to push myself to let go and move on with my life without him.
My schedule was killing me…I didn’t have the chance to attend succeeding diving lessons anymore. But I know part of me wasn’t that ready to undergo that lesson. But I know when the right time comes, I will finish that lesson and will be able to dive out.
True enough, after a year I conquered my fear and went scuba diving! Yippee…Yehey! Yahoo! It was in Anilao, Batangas. We had to dive out --- four wonderful times! I was way behind the scuba lessons…they were able to dive out already…they know what to do…but for me…I was again scared! This time it wasn’t a pa-cute scared of a thing… This was a real SCARY THING…this is the real thing… This is where I will use all the knowledge I have learned (if I had learned any, hehehe). This is where I will see fishes, corals and anything and everything underwater. Eto yung tipong wala nang side ng swimming pool na mahahawakan ko sakaling mag chicken out ako. Ang bigat pa ng oxygen tank. Gwabeh! I should do this…these were the words I constantly repeat inside my head. Plus that fact that I paid a considerably large amount of money just to give me something to fear about? Labo! Ang expensive na nga ng scuba lessons, expensive pa ang mga gamit…wet suit, booties, goggles, snorkel, flippers…haaay…ang mahal masaktan ang puso….hehehe
On the boat, going to the dive site, I was praying so hard…I think the bangkero heard me even though I was whispering. Hahaha I was sooooooo SCARED, AFRAID, FRIGHTENED, TERRIFIED. TROUBLED to the max! (ano pa bang word pwedeng i-describe sa takot na naramdaman ko?) I wasn’t prepared! I thought I was going to die!
But thank God I didn’t die…It wasn’t my time yet. If ever I died that time, it wasn’t because of an accident during the dive but a heart attack because I was so stressed out and I forgot the word "relax" and panic was my bestfriend that time. I worried too much… I went down…underwater that is…while going down the ocean, I was still praying…naka isang rosaryo ata ako!
Thinking that I was going to die was the agony for my dive. When I was doing the actual skill of scuba diving…I got at ease…seeing all those corals, fishes with different sizes and colors (si Dorie Nakita ko, si Nemo..finding nemo parin), every creature underwater was really a work of art ...wonders… Ang galing talaga ni God! Yun lang nasabi ko…Ang galing kung pano nakakahinga ako sa ilalim ng tubig…It was peaceful but scary…It was relaxing but scary…It was fun but scary…It was fantastic but scary… It was remarkable but sacry…It was marvelous but scary…It was an awe-inspiring experience worth fearing because through that fear I was determined to overcome it. I was determined to see the beautiful things God allowed me to see. Through that fear, i VALUEd life once again...Through that fear, I was able to divert my attention from my heart that was broken again (stress on the word again)…Yes! Another moving on stage for me. This time, just a week of enduring the pain and hurt caused by the break-up…I thought of dying...God made me experience the possibility of dying through diving but then again there’s a million reasons to apprecate life and be grateful about…because they say that a heartbreak even though it’s so painful and the worst feeling one can experience, it is still a blessing from God because He saved me from the (possibly) wrong one. *wink*
It was May 3, 2007 when I had my first taste of scuba diving. Yes! You got it right- SCUBA DIVING! My friends from Game knb convinced me to join them for scuba lessons. At first, I was thrilled…ecstatic…determined…I wanted to adhere this undertaking for three reasons. First, to rekindle the friendship with my gameknb friends…I missed them so much…being away from them because I joined a different show format made me realize that they’re the best colleagues I had in that TV network I worked for seven long years (talk about seven year itch). Second, to conquer my fear of the ocean…hindi ako marunong magswimming. Ba’t ba?… Lastly, to divert my attention and just simply to unwind because it was only months that I just had my heart broken by my ex-boyfriend-for four years-whom almost-soon-to-be-husband. (future blog entry, hehehe)
That was it! May 3, 2007 was my first and last scuba diving lesson/ pool session for the year. No words can describe the feeling I had when I was underwater…being able to breathe underwater (swimming pool lang) using all those equipment that I can’t even seem to memorize the names made me overjoyed and thankful. But it made me question myself. Can I do this? Can I actually dive? I can’t concentrate…can’t focus…can’t understand a thing my dive master was teaching me. I was preoccupied by the fact that my heart was badly bruised during that time and I was trying to push myself to let go and move on with my life without him.
My schedule was killing me…I didn’t have the chance to attend succeeding diving lessons anymore. But I know part of me wasn’t that ready to undergo that lesson. But I know when the right time comes, I will finish that lesson and will be able to dive out.
True enough, after a year I conquered my fear and went scuba diving! Yippee…Yehey! Yahoo! It was in Anilao, Batangas. We had to dive out --- four wonderful times! I was way behind the scuba lessons…they were able to dive out already…they know what to do…but for me…I was again scared! This time it wasn’t a pa-cute scared of a thing… This was a real SCARY THING…this is the real thing… This is where I will use all the knowledge I have learned (if I had learned any, hehehe). This is where I will see fishes, corals and anything and everything underwater. Eto yung tipong wala nang side ng swimming pool na mahahawakan ko sakaling mag chicken out ako. Ang bigat pa ng oxygen tank. Gwabeh! I should do this…these were the words I constantly repeat inside my head. Plus that fact that I paid a considerably large amount of money just to give me something to fear about? Labo! Ang expensive na nga ng scuba lessons, expensive pa ang mga gamit…wet suit, booties, goggles, snorkel, flippers…haaay…ang mahal masaktan ang puso….hehehe
On the boat, going to the dive site, I was praying so hard…I think the bangkero heard me even though I was whispering. Hahaha I was sooooooo SCARED, AFRAID, FRIGHTENED, TERRIFIED. TROUBLED to the max! (ano pa bang word pwedeng i-describe sa takot na naramdaman ko?) I wasn’t prepared! I thought I was going to die!
But thank God I didn’t die…It wasn’t my time yet. If ever I died that time, it wasn’t because of an accident during the dive but a heart attack because I was so stressed out and I forgot the word "relax" and panic was my bestfriend that time. I worried too much… I went down…underwater that is…while going down the ocean, I was still praying…naka isang rosaryo ata ako!
Thinking that I was going to die was the agony for my dive. When I was doing the actual skill of scuba diving…I got at ease…seeing all those corals, fishes with different sizes and colors (si Dorie Nakita ko, si Nemo..finding nemo parin), every creature underwater was really a work of art ...wonders… Ang galing talaga ni God! Yun lang nasabi ko…Ang galing kung pano nakakahinga ako sa ilalim ng tubig…It was peaceful but scary…It was relaxing but scary…It was fun but scary…It was fantastic but scary… It was remarkable but sacry…It was marvelous but scary…It was an awe-inspiring experience worth fearing because through that fear I was determined to overcome it. I was determined to see the beautiful things God allowed me to see. Through that fear, i VALUEd life once again...Through that fear, I was able to divert my attention from my heart that was broken again (stress on the word again)…Yes! Another moving on stage for me. This time, just a week of enduring the pain and hurt caused by the break-up…I thought of dying...God made me experience the possibility of dying through diving but then again there’s a million reasons to apprecate life and be grateful about…because they say that a heartbreak even though it’s so painful and the worst feeling one can experience, it is still a blessing from God because He saved me from the (possibly) wrong one. *wink*
posted by Tina at
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3 Comments:
Yahoo! So proud! You go, girlfriend! =D
yehey...talaga ah, you're proud...yahooo
sama ko tins ... ako si dory ha
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